Mom, my hero.

I’ve officially been back at KSU for two weeks and I am missing my mom like crazy. This is why I decided to dedicate this to her, to my best friend and my other half. Ever since I was younger, I grew up becoming closer and closer to my mom. I always looked up to her and I still continue to do so. She is truly the most amazing woman I have ever met in my entire life. She is the one who inspired me to be a nurse. She showed me how to love and take care of others. She showed me how amazing it feels to care for others. My mom is the epitome of a superhero. This woman busts her behind to provide for her family.

Ever since my dad passed away, roughly eleven years ago, she had to play both roles. She had to be mom and dad. She was the one getting my brothers and I ready for dances. She had to teach my brothers how to tie their ties. She was there when they got hurt. She experienced two out of three of us graduate high school. She will even be here to walk me down the aisle one day. My mom was always there for us and she would do absolutely anything for us. I can call her in the middle of the night and I know she is there for me (I have done this a few times). She is always there to calm me down, help me through my panic attacks, and always makes me laugh when I need it. This woman even drives an hour and a half to Kent just to bring me my medicine and turn right back around to go home. What other amazing human being gives up her only Saturday to do that? Anyone who can deal with me 24/7 and still love me is a superhero in my book. With her being a single parent, I can only imagine how hard it is for her. From my point of view, its probably one of the hardest things she’s ever done, but shes never given up.

Between moving, heartbreaks, and plenty more that she didn’t deserve, my mom has been through just about everything. No matter what happened, she always made it through and came out even stronger. She is the person who makes me stronger as a person. She has always supported my brothers and I in whatever we did, and we couldn’t have asked for more. My mom has to be the strongest person I know and I truly hope to be half of the woman she is, as I become older.

If any of you are reading this and know my mom, you know that she would do anything for anyone. She will always put everyone else’s happiness before her own. This is what makes her such a genuine and beautiful person. Mom, if you’re reading this, I love you to the moon and back and so much more! You are such an extraordinary person and I want to grow up and be just like you. You are truly my other half and if it wasn’t for you, I’m not sure where I would be today. You truly never cease to amaze me. You deserve the biggest house, the nicest car, and to be taken care of for the rest of your life. You deserve a break. I am sorry that I can’t help even more, especially when you deserve the world. When I finally graduate nursing school, I promise you that I will take care of you for once. I will finally give you everything you deserve. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for absolutely everything you do for me. I will never be able to thank you enough.

Ladies and gentlemen, this is why my mom is my hero.


Winter Break in a Nutshell

Okay, so since I’ve been on Winter Break that means no homework for a whole month. Yeah, I know. For me, its very weird knowing that I can sit on the couch and nap with my cat without having to feel guilty or hearing annoying voice in my head telling me to go study for the pharm exam that’s in a few days. Over break, I can truly say that I’ve played just about every game I own, from Skyrim, to Pokemon Sun, to Animal Crossing. Let me tell you, I have loved every ounce of it.

During the semester, I barely have time to go out, let alone sit in my room playing Skyrim until 3 o’clock in the morning so this entire break was pretty awesome. I decided to start an entirely new account and join the Dark Brotherhood, so I basically killed dragons in my spare time. Gotta love being the Dragonborn. I also made time to play Animal Crossing: New Leaf. To all of my fellow AC players, the update is adorable! They have this thing where you can scan Amiibo cards and invite certain characters to live in your town.

Other than playing my games and catching up on my shows, I also babysat for the most part. I was able to enjoy my time with this amazing girl I babysit, named Karlee. She has to be one of the most beautiful, kind hearted people I know. I have been watching this little girl for almost 5 years now and she never ceases to amaze me. She is the sister that I never got to have growing up and I couldn’t be more thankful to have her in my life.

I have truly enjoyed my break. Especially the movie nights with my pap and spending time with my family. Nothing is better than spending quality time with family. I even got to spend the night with my brother and his girlfriend (aka my future sister-in-law). *hint hint* Its amazing what you miss out on when your an hour an a half away from home. Hopefully this upcoming semester goes quick, because I can’t wait to be home for an entire summer! Although, I am pretty excited for this semester. I have 12 hour clinical rotations in Akron, OH along with two patients I get to take care of! I’m sure it’ll be a good semester.

All in all, this is how I spent my break and I have enjoyed every second of it. I couldn’t be more thankful!

New Year, new me? Nah.

Hello fellow bloggers and Happy New Year! Instead of giving my cliche “New Year Resolution” or the whole “new year new me” spiel, I’m hoping this year will be different. This is my first blog post of the new year and I’m hoping it helps me out. 2016 wasn’t necessarily a bad year, but it definitely wasn’t easy. As a nursing major, I have literally studied my butt off. The first semester in the program was absolutely amazing, but this past semester, we had to take care of actual patients. It truly made me realize how much that I want to succeed and be the best nurse possible. My patients have taught me so much and each and every one of them were absolutely phenomenal. Clinical was my favorite experience. As for class work, I did my homework, I studied and didn’t do so great, but I did come out strong! I did pretty good on my finals.

Now for my social life, I didn’t have much time to get out, but I did. I think I may or may not have studied more than I slept.. oops.. On the plus side, my clinical group is full of nothing but amazing human beings and I couldn’t be more thankful for them, especially Ashley. This girl has kept me sane for a year now and I wouldn’t change it for the world. I have lost so much in 2016, but I am truly thankful for what I’ve gained. I was actually really surprised to see who my true friends were in the end. Note to self, keep your circle tight. To the few that stuck around, thank you so so much. You mean the world to me and I would do absolutely anything for you.

I never realized how much anxiety, stress, and depression could take over my life. This past fall semester has probably been the hardest. Between family emergencies and missing my mom, it was hard. Luckily, everything turned out okay in the end. I’m hoping that 2017 can bring me true happiness. I don’t want to care what people think anymore. Before, I use to put everybody’s happiness before my own, but that is going to change. I deserve to be happy for once. I’m also going to continue my amazing gym routines with Ashley. We kicked butt all semester, cardio and lifting three days a week really gives a girl some muscles!

New year, new me? Nah. New year, same me. Same me, but much happier and much healthier.

Fingers crossed that 2017 is my year!